I Can't Focus

I can't focus on anything to save my life right now. Everything feels like it's not really happening. I mean, I feel like I'm disassociated with my life. I think it has to do with the work load on my plate. My mind if coping with the fact that I'm totally over my head by just making me constantly space the fuck out. I have a ton of stuff on my plate. I have school(which sucks for me), I have work(which I've had more fun slaughtering a goat doing), I have my wife which is a whole category onto herself and any man who's married will dig what I'm saying. I have my dancing. I mean, I'm all over the place with a bunch of friends who aren't independent or fucking responsible. Needless to say, they're not any real support when it comes to the grown-ass-man things I'm handling. Whatever, fuck everything and everyone who isn't about being there to help me and mine get over.

I should really take some time off and just relax but I can't. I have to work it heavy for the next few weeks. School is demanding, Japs is too up in the air about her employment, my work situation is dreadful but needed and my dancing is suffering. I kind of feel that if I push myself with the dance I could really fuck up people's evenings with how good I become but with everything piling up I'm not there yet. A little bit more. Just a bit tougher and a bit stronger and I'll see some real "blast the fuck off" kind of gains in everything.

Dig the mullet and cool out. That shit helped me relax.