It's election day. I voted last Friday. I can't explain how I'm feeling right now. I feel overweight. I can start there. I have to wake up in five hours for school on one of my two days off a week. The second day, if you were curious, is likewise filled with school and I can say it's not any more fun than the one I am looking forward to today. I'm so tired of the routine. It feels like I'm destined for something better. I am a better man lately, though. I can say I walk a tighter rope and keep better care of myself which is an improvement. I can't, however, claim that I'm happy. I really wish I could just decide on a career path and get it happening. I have learned I can't effectively be happy working for someone else but I'm a loss for ideas on business ventures. We'll see how that works out for me and The Woman, I guess.
On that note; sometimes I regret some things I've done. Somethings I don't. I don't regret getting married. I do, however, wish I had taken more time to get myself right before forcing my bullshit on someone else. Japs really has the heart of gold. If I were a righteous man I'd suggest sainthood for the woman. I plan on making more time for the people who have been there for me before. I wish hanging out with old friends and I can only hope that my support for change in politics will somehow magically garner me favor from the man upstairs and dramatically get me some time to do so.
I do, however miss the fast women, fast times and fast life. On second thought, most people who get down like that are fucking miserable so maybe I don't.
I can dig scrappin'.
But I can't dig no back stabbin'.